I can’t express how much I adore the inconceivable reality that He so lovingly embraces us over and over again though we may distance ourselves from Him. I come to this realization of His great passion for His children just about everyday. Usually, I am reminded of it once I see that I’ve been pushing Him away. But He’s there…right there…every single time. He’s always waiting for me to talk to Him.
“Where shall I go from your spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence?” -Psalm 139:7
Just last night, after realizing that I had yet another lapse from my Father, I conversed with Him about it…
“My question tonight is – – can I continue picking up where I left off with you? Of course, I really don’t want to keep “picking up and dropping off,” but this is how it has been.”
When I think about it, the “dropping off’s” are usually unintentional and short-lived, but they always seem like an eternity. They always wind up being the most unfathomable waste of time and energy. And when I pick back up, I try so hard. I find myself trying to make things up to You versus basking in Your grace.
So, as I was walking to the metro station last night, I felt sweet relief wash through my mind.
This is what He says to me, but I know that it is for everyone… “I will joyfully keep on taking you back, you know I will. Believe it, daughter! Also know that I want nothing more than to be with you all the time.”
“Let what you heard in the beginning abide in you. If what you heard in the beginning abides in you, then you too will abide in the Son and in the Father. And this is the promise that he made to us – eternal life.” -I John 2:24-25
Father, I’m running home AGAIN.
I want to be prudent. I long to move closer and closer to the depths of His heart. I want to live and breathe to do and say what He would have for me. I want to be dilligent in prayer, for I know that out of this comes greater faith and more opening up of the Kingdom. I long to abide in the Spirit of God. I just want to be with Him.
There is no doubt that I will fail again. Thanks be to the Savior who never leaves me, never leaves you no matter what.